Dear Colleges that send me stuff,

I hope you know that I don't want attend any of these colleges. Of course, the one college I do want to go to has sent me an email saying that they had set up an application profile for me so I wouldn't have to do it in the fall. All I had to do was send my ACT score to them. I don't even know why you know who I am! Is it because of the PSAT? The one I did really well on? It probably is. However, Texas Christian, Agnes-Scott, Kenyon, Birmingham-Southern, Iowa State, and VMI, I don't want to attend any of your schools. So stop sending me creepy emails.
Thanks.

Lifestyle Lolita

I’m going to become a lifestyle Lolita.

Wait, what?

No, that’s right. You heard me.  I’m going to be a lifestyle Lolita, at least for a little while. It’s going to be mostly inward though, as I don’t want people to judge me too much and Lolita is expensive. But I’ve been just sick of myself lately, and I think a little dosage of cuteness and elegance could do me some good. So here’s what I’m going to do:

-I’m going to stop being so negative.

-Drink a cup of tea every day from a real tea cup (or if that’s dirty my Doctor Who one will suffice)

-Sneak something ultra cute into my wardrobe every day. Whether it’s shoes with bows, cute earrings, a necklace, etc…something will work.

-Take one bat h a week (and the other days take showers).

-Be nicer to people or kill them with kindness

-Study better in a cute little study area (that needs to be made)

-Stop swearing as often

-Eat better

-Take walks and do yoga

-Go to bed earlier

-Paint my nails

-Fill my room with super cute things

-Bake more often

-Cook more often

-Knit more often

-Learn to sew

-Speak more French

-Read more (maybe in French?)

-Try to watch more anime (preferably Studio Ghibli Movies)

-Draw more

-Write more

Eh, that sounds good. Any ideas? 

I am a derp

So we had to write plays for drama class and we're performing them too! Super happy fun time, right? Well, no. We have to memorize them as well. The one we're doing right now is mine.

HOW DO I NOT HAVE THIS MEMORIZED?

Ugh, I'm such a failure. Maybe I know it better than I think I do, but I'm still freaking out. I know the lines, I just don't know my cues. I guess.

Maybe. Ugh.

Weekend

Yes, I like weekends. I'm going snowboarding this weekend, and I'm super excited. And not just weekends, things that involve weekends too! Like the song Weekend by the Smith Westerns.

"Do you think, is it normal? To go through life, oh so formal. Na Na Na Na Na a girl like you. Weekends are never fun, unless you're around too."


Seriously, I love this song. It's a fun little tune. It's on their album Dye It Blonde.

Now if I can just get it out of my head.

Escape

I need to chill. I need to get away and forget it all for awhile. Maybe all my aggression towards people who used to be my friends is the product of cabin fever.

Wait, no, that's total b.s.

We're all just too different. I'd rather shop at places like Urban Outfitters than Hot Topic. Listen to Best Coast and not My Chemical Romance. Drink way-too-expensive coffee and sit around at Starbucks than go annoy perfectly normal people.

It's the way of life. I think I grew up before they did. They seem so young to me, even though they aren't so much younger. It's weird. Maybe it's just because I'm ready to head off to college and (most of them) are still being the sophomores they are. I'm so over the judgmental bit of high school (I don't actually judge anyone, I state facts), I don't like the cattiness. I'm ready to move on, and they aren't.

Peer Pressure

So I came to a realization this morning. I don't hate the really skinny girls in the magazines. I don't. I hate the tv shows and movies and books that force teenage girls to think that having low self esteem is cool. Really, if girls were taught that that it's okay to not care what people think instead of being taught to hate other girls for being pretty, think of what might happen.

I mean seriously, and maybe it's just my group of friends, but I feel more pressure to NOT wear make-up, to NOT wear fashionable clothes, to NOT try to look my best. I like wearing pink and make-up and smelling nice.
I mean sure, I wear tragically hip clothes (I pretty much just shop in Forever 21 and Urban Outfitters now, with a little bit of Target) and that's not everyone's idea of super fashionable.

See, apparently in some circles it's not okay to be yourself if being yourself isn't being a "nonconformist".


Actually, all of this upsets me. I'm not allowed to think I'm pretty without being vain. I'm not allowed to wear make-up without being self-conscious (I see make-up as an accessory).  I'm not allowed to wear skirts without being a whore.

It just doesn't make sense.

Just a little fashion blogging

So, if you haven't noticed, I love fashion. It's probably one of my favorite things. I am addicted to Lookbook and Tumblr, but recently a friend introduced me to Pintrest.
I've begun to find things that I am just obsessed with, fashion items I mean.

Surprisingly, I'm rather fashionable. This surprises me. I've never been fashionable in my life, but I get on Lookbook and I'm like I HAVE THINGS LIKE THIS!

Thank the goddess for the hipster trend.

Just a tiny achievement, no big deal

So I'm on the speech and debate team right? And I love it!  Unfortunately, for the past two years (my freshman and sophomore years) I haven't done crap. But this year however, I've gone to almost every tournament (there were two I just didn't go to, for one I was at another tournament).
So I found out I've gotten 97 points this year and I have three more chances for getting points.

I'm super happy.

Want to get me to cry?

So I thought I was over that certain boy. Until today. The choir has a concert tonight and they had a teaser. I was like "Oh, this is going to be cool, the choir always has good songs"

Yeah, certain boy had a solo in Fix You by Coldplay.

ARE THEY TRYING TO KILL ME?

And they sang a mash-up of Rumor Has It and Someone Like You. The later is always sure to start waterworks.

So here is a list of (just a few of them) songs that will make me think of him and then make me cry:
There Is  A Light and It Never Goes Out-The Smiths
Fix You-Coldplay
Someone Like You-Adele
Why Can't I-Liz Phair
How Soon Is Now-The Smiths
Naked-Avril Lavigne
Boyfriend-Best Coast
The One That Got Away-Katy Perry
My Maudlin Career-Camera Obscura