FINALLY

So, after exactly twenty days, my computer is returned to me. You know what that means, NO MORE SPARE! Yay! I'm still having to get use to the keyboard
So let me list all the things I'm able to do now:
-Play Sims 3 again
-Charge my computer
-Use Google Chrome
-Write hardcore
-Draw

I'm super excited.

I has a sad

I don't know why, but lately I've been really sad. Maybe it's because of changes in the atmospheric pressure or something, there have been quite a few storms rumbling through. I'm trying every thing to help, yoga, drinking more water, taking naps, reading, etc. Yoga only works for a short while (but it's a good work out, so I'll keep up with it).
I've been on edge lately, there are very few people I want to talk to and very few things I want to do. Like someone who used to be my best friend (and still is) constantly says things that make me want to punch her. I don't know if it's me or her.
I also have no energy, and that's probably from lack of sleep. I mean, Saturday night was the only time this weekend I got more than three hours. I didn't sleep well last night.
So I don't know, but I hope it changes soon.
I want to play Sims 2.

Hold me back now

So, as I'm sure you know, I'm going on the thespian trip this weekend. Up until yesterday, I was super excited. I was convinced it was going to be the best weekend of my life, or at least in the top ten. But now, even though I'm still sure it's going to be a great weekend, I know that my ex-best friend is going to be there.
Weekend somewhat ruined.

I try not to be awkward around her, and I haven't really talked to her in two years. So things have calmed down. But I just despise her so much that I don't know how it's going to go. The best way I can describe our "relationship" (or lack thereof) right now is through Marceline's song "I'm Just Your Problem". (Yes, Adventure Time)
Marceline: La da da da da,
I'm gonna bury you in the ground,
La da da da da,
I'm gonna bury you with my sound,
I'm gonna drink the red from your pretty pink face
I'm gonna…
Princess Bubblegum: Marceline, that's too distasteful!
Marceline: Oh, you don't like that? Or do you just not like me!?
Sorry I don’t treat you like a goddess
Is that what you want me to do?
Sorry I don’t treat you like you’re perfect,
Like all your little loyal subjects do
Sorry I’m not made of sugar,
Am I not sweet enough for you?
Is that why you always avoid me?
That must be such an inconvenience to you


Well,
I’m just your problem
I’m just your problem
It’s like I’m not even a person, am I?
I’m just your problem


Well, I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I shouldn’t have to justify what I do
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I shouldn’t have to prove anything to you
I’m sorry that I exist
I forget what landed me on your black list
But I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I shouldn’t have to be the one that makes up with you


So, why do I want to? Why do I want to…
To… bury you in the ground and drink the blood from your… UGH!!

Yeah, angsty. Sorry. But I'm just worried. I'll try everything to make this weekend fantastic though. I know there is no reason why this weekend can't be the best weekend of my life. I'm going to be with awesome people and I'm going to be doing awesome things. I'm going to be taking tons of workshops and go to dances and Build-a-Bear. 

So, I'll try the best I can to make it awesome and not kill anyone. No promises.
 

Obsession and fan girls

As I'm sure any of you know, I go through phases of obsession. During these phases, I geek out over one fandom (or person/band/etc). Right now it's Adventure Time, a couple of days ago it was Code Lyoko, and before that it was Criminal Minds.

What makes this different, is that I haven't really geeked out over Adventure Time before. I have to say, it feels kinda good. Oh my glob, it's a fun fandom. It's so nerdy and weird, it's fun! I mentioned something about dressing up as Marceline for the convention during break today, and this guy totally freaked out because he LOVES Adventure Time. Now, I'm sorta friends with this guy (he can be a major douche) but I had never known him to geek out over anything but Star Trek. And he was like FREAKING out because he loved Adventure Time.

I guess it's all encompassing. So is Driving Ms. Daisy, but that's another story.


Now, on to fan girls. I had this conversation with my friend this morning. Fan girls are weird. I find my self turned off from certain fandoms because the fan girls scare me. Mostly, anime fan girls. But the normal fan girl I seem to come across is either super defensive, super rude, super annoying, super stupid, or all of the above. I would like to label my self as a fan girl (as some normal ones to exist), but with the current label on fan girl (because of truth) I will just have to settle for "Fan".

MTAC

So I just found out that I can, in fact, go to MTAC this year (with only missing a three hour period for rehearsal). Now, my big issue is what should I be this year? I have some ideas.

1. My favorite adventure time character Marceline the Vampire Queen.

2. Fionna the Human (from the gender-bent episode of AT, Adventure Time with Fionna and Cake).

 3. Amy Pond (from Doctor Who)

4. My friends want me to be Terra from Teen Titans. I don't really want to do it, but it's still an option.

Ok, the problem with the costume is that I have to be able to whip of the weird parts (wig etc.) for practice. So that's why I think Marceline is a good bet, because I'd just have to take off the wig, take out the teeth, and wipe off the fake vampire marks. I might not even have the grey body paint, because it's hard to work with and I'm pale enough.

The guys only doing it for some doll

So musical rehearsal starts today. I'm really excited since I have a pretty good part this year. Plus, the musical is always fun. We're doing Guys and Dolls this year (if you couldn't tell by the title).

The only bad part about the musical this year is that the one person I probably dislike the most is in it. I don't know how I'm going to deal. Wait, no, that's wrong. I know how I'm going to deal. I'm friends with everyone in the cast, and she doesn't know anyone. Nevermind.

I'm also excited for this weekend, it's Thes-con. It's my first year going (I could have gone last year, but I went to the Alabama tournament). I'm pumped up for it. I'm missing this Friday for it, and I really don't have to do anything, just have fun. So I have a four day weekend, because I miss Monday for MLK day.

And then I miss the Friday after next, and then the Monday after that.

I don't have a full week in all of January, and very few in February. There's one weekend were I have a one day week! YAY!

Speech crush

Now, it's not unusual for someone (guy or girl) on a speech team to have speech crushes. I technically have two. I will only mention them by their first names in the off chance they read this blog. Hopefully they'd be able tell it was them by what I say, if not they're dumb.

So number 1 is John. I guess this is more "OHMYGODYOURAWESOME" than actual like. Cause he is awesome and super talented. Plus, I'm not the only girl who thinks this. So this is less of a crush and more of an admiration.

Number 2 is the "Real" "speech crush". His name is Jacob. He lives in Illinois. He is pretty awesome. I met him at camp. He had an awesome poetry piece. I'm going to focus on "liking" him so that I don't go through the same stuff I did with that one guy during the last two musicals. Nothing's going to happen...unless he goes back to the same camp this year.